Ramblings

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 19:45:00 GMT

Conlann Jameson

June 8, 2009 at 6:10 pm after 21 hours of labor, i had a c section, and this gorgeous creature came into my life...i am forever blessed and grateful.

Simple overdue update

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 15:47:05 GMT

It's been forever and a day since i've updated, so very much has gone on i suppose, but for the most part i keep them in my own memory and don't find the need to write it down. BUT alas, why not document some while i still have my wits about me...lol

The biggest news is that i'm having a baby--a little boy to be exact. I'm 7 months pregnant, doing well, he's healthy, i'm healthy, Jim's healthy, we're all healthy and eager to get this thing going! While the first trimester was absolutely awful (let's just say i lost about 15 lbs just from the morning sickness lol), the past 3-4 months have been a bit easier, save the reflux that i've been cursed with despite gestating a human. It's all a matter of adjusting what i eat and proportion sizes. I suppose it's a really good thing because i've not gained a pound yet! So far, the wee bern is living off the fat of the land, so to speak, and as long as the doctors are happy with his size, i'm fully for not gaining the typical 20-80 lbs most women do! I know i'll eventually gain at least 10 lbs these next few months, but man, never in my life have i ever been so thankful for being a plus size gal...lol Keep it up, kiddo...Mummy's got a lot to give!

Probably not the best time to have a baby, financially, with the state of this world and all, but i know things will work out. Again, it's all about adjustments and compromises and even sacrifices. I'm looking forward to all the challenges and most of all, to have a wee lil boy to snuggle and cuddle with! Jim's finished school (yay!!!) so he's on the prowl for a job, i'm still at Splash, but working from home more often, and gratefully able to keep on working from home once Kiddo arrives. We have a wonderful opportunity to move to Michigan and have a house, my parents house, to start our life as a family, so that's something that's going to happen by the end of summer. Will be wonderful to be so close to my brother and his family, my dad a bit further away, but i know i'll find comfort and solace in the last place my mother made into a home. It's going to be difficult, but i'm also happy to take it on--it's the closest i can be to my mom, the best gift i can give to my child is a happy and full home built on love and care. I just hope i can do her justice. I think we'll all be happier there too, more space, a huge front and back yard, gardens to tend, more than 3 rooms to live in, a gorgeous kitchen to cook in, LAUNDRY ROOM!!! So much to look forward to...i can't wait. I think Jonesy will appreciate it more too, lots of places to hide from the little one while he's so loud and screechy...lol It's going to be wonderfully crazy!

As far as everything else, we're taking it all day by day, it's all any of us can do. I'm hoping Jim finds something in his field as a good transition job, maybe even something transferable. I'm also hoping that MY job is going to be secure, who knows with the fashion industry these days, but just long enough that i can continue to do what i do up in Michigan, and also begin dog training once the bambino gets a bit older. There's so much we want to do, and i think with faith in ourselves, hard work, compromise, and persistance we'll do it.

Where has the time gone?

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 15:20:11 GMT

I haven't updated in eons, probably because i'm either too lazy, too busy, or just not in the posting mood, even though lots has happened in the past year. Anyway, i'm just going to go with some free association right now because i'm totally procrastinating...lol

*I should be working on my 15 patterns this week of my line, but i'm not feeling it right this second. Always happens when i actually have the time to do it. Also, not easy to think Christmas when it's 80 degrees out

*I really wish Jim and i could afford to go to Hawaii--i'm rather obsessed with it right now. The more i look at vacations and resorts and places of interest, the more i want it. Torture!!

*Since i'm now an official certified dog trainer, i guess i should actually start training dogs...lol. I'm in a fix cos I want a dog of my own so badly, but damn apartment won't allow it. Guess i'll have to wait til the move to Michigan next year--the waiting sucks so.

*Jim and i have been together now for 1 year and 23 days (corny, i know)but man, has it flown by! It's wonderful to be with someone who gets me, who i can laugh with and do stupid stuff with and be ME with. We're totally into having weird adventures. One thing i love about him is that he loves to be spontaneous and just do whatever--SOOOO nice to find someone like that, i can't even tell you! We've both done things we'd never done before, and i can't wait to do more. Currently we're into crabbing down the shore and getting ready to plan a nice long weekend of it with camping and such. Can't wait!

*Considering all the crappy things that have happened the past year, this year's been....an adjustment, but good in many ways. Still, it's so hard to believe that i'll never see my Mom again and she won't be here for things that i really took for granted and things that are to come. She was truly my best friend and this year has been far worse with the little things that sometimes i don't know how to get through it all. As my Dad says, "life is adjustment" and he's so very right. I miss her incredibly and not a moment goes by where i don't think of her or want to tell her something. I don't like to live my life thinking i have regrets, but i have two, the most important one being that i didn't spend the time with her that i should have. Living far away was the greatest mistake i've ever made in my life, but never once did she complain or ask me to move closer during the 9 years she fought and suffered with the breast cancer, the Guilleme-Barre, or the bone marrow leukemia. She wanted me to live my own life and enjoy it. She was absolutely amazing, how hard she fought, how inspiring she was til the very end and still is...

Anyway, i guess i should start some form of working type activity now---ugh, is it Friday yet?

At last...the Holy Grail obtained!! By that i mean Simon...

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 18:33:39 GMT

Duran Listening Party ~ June 18, 2007 XChange, Chelsea, NYC...kicked arse!!!!!
Thanks to John, the man himself, for inviting me and Anna, (beyond surreal LOL) to the listening gig where we got to hear DJ Eve spin the album, chill with the band, and hob knob with an open bar!! Woot!! Good times!!

She's the dog's bollocks...

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 21:37:30 GMT

Thank you, Beth, for giving us real girls a something to be proud of--we're so fucking sexy dammit!!! This world needs a serious boot up it's collective and elitist ass for promoting that sizes 0-8 are the ONLY forms of beauty and sexiness--i've never been happier with my flesh and softness in my life!

Learning Curve

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 14:21:50 GMT

Horoscope for week of March 12th

Follow Your Bliss

This is a very big week for you, AMY, due to the New Moon Solar Eclipse that takes place in your own sign of Pisces on Sunday. The effect of an Eclipse can be felt for up to five days before it actually takes place, so you should be feeling the energy shift at the beginning of the week. Change is always a big part of any Eclipse, and although you might not see the results until three months or more have passed, the seed is being planted for you now. Since the Eclipse takes place in your sector of personality and self-identity, you should find yourself going on a voyage of self-discovery in the coming weeks and months. You may not be satisfied with your current status quo, and you might want to pursue your deepest desires, no matter what anyone thinks, including your close family and friends. If you have always wanted to live on a houseboat for example, or to be a ballet dancer, you may find ways to make those dreams realities. Now you should have the courage to follow your bliss, and to live your life in a way that makes you, and you alone, happy!

Every morning i wake up and give myself a little pep talk to the Universe, "this year is going to be my year, it's going to all fall into place, i have faith in that, in myself, in what i would like to happen"--often enough i DO believe it. It's hard to retrain your thoughts into positive ones when you've had a lot of ups and downs, but i know it's something that really does help in many aspects of one's life. I work hard at this daily. Harder than i ever have. Some things have changed and moved forward, some haven't, but that's ok, it's all a learning experience and it's all part of my journey, i understand that. I just truly believe in ONE particular thing that i'd like to enrich my life, and each and every day i focus on that, i throw my intentions out into the universe, reflect, and let them be carried away, feeling deep down in my soul that it WILL come to fruition for me, soon. I've never felt so strongly about this one thing ever before, and i, myself, find it curious that i DO feel this way about it. In spite of all the trials and hardships associated with it previously--i feel SO DEEPLY that this will be. I'm proud of myself for not giving up on it, proud of myself for being open to it, proud of myself for seeing it in a new light, proud of myself for accepting instead of judging.

This will happen. I know it. And it will be amazing...

Whodathunkit?

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 19:42:09 GMT

horoscope for JANUARY 31, 2007

Pisces

Contrary to what you may be feeling, this is not the moment to be thinking about your professional direction, AMY. It's true that your career ambitions are changing, but let things happen in their natural course. Be patient. You need four solid months to succeed in cementing the new orientation of your career. Be confident about the future. When change does occur, it will happen very quickly!

Very amusing considering i am currently studying to become a dog trainer, and that's about the time i'll finish with my book testing bit.

Good to hear, however vague, real, or full of boloney horoscopes may be...woot!

Part of the journey, blah yeah, i know...

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 18:31:04 GMT

I'd like to go on a really good date for once. Yup. It's been far too long since i've had a good one--i'm talking like almost 2 years...lol The last, oh 10 dates or so, have just been so lackluster to the point of honestly prefering falling asleep on my couch at 9pm on a Saturday night. Yeah, they've been that good...lol

I'd rather be dipping my hangnails in lemon juice.

Grr.

*chants the mantra* ...the right man will come at the right time, the right man will come at the right time...

Because lame quizzes are kill time...

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 16:05:03 GMT

Even though they are for teenagers (as one can tell by the typos...lol), why the hell not? lol

WHAT MOVIE ARE YOU ?? (4 GIRLS)
Secret Window Your cryptic, yet that's what makes you intriguing. You have a mixed personality and your always up for adventure.
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What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Intrapersonal Intelligence Some people thing you're a loner, but you just like spending time in your own head with your own thoughts. You're attracted to the works of great philosophers. You've got an intense understanding of yourself, and wish other people were as self-aware as you are. The company of others can be a distraction and an irritant sometimes. You learn best when left alone to figure out the problem for yourself. You'd be best suited to a career as an academic, theologian, philosopher, psychiatrist, or writer.
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What's Your Type?
The Romantic You want that guy who can't look at you without tripping, stuttering and handing you flowers. All at once. He's totally into you and no one else, and you love the super-romantic dates and special occations you share together. You feel, perhaps unconsciously, that love has alot to do with how you treat someone and with how you present it.
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Ganked from Severina :)

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 22:24:11 GMT

HUH! I'm rather shocked actually seeing i was born and raised in Pennsylvania...lol Funny what living in PA, OH, MI, NY, and NJ can do to a gal:

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The West Your accent is the lowest common denominator of American speech. Unless you're a SoCal surfer, no one thinks you have an accent. And really, you may not even be from the West at all, you could easily be from Florida or one of those big Southern cities like Dallas or Atlanta.
The Midland
Boston
North Central
The Inland North
The Northeast
Philadelphia
The South
What American accent do you have?

hmmmm...peculiar

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 16:08:16 GMT

And tit was said it would never happen again...

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 17:33:27 GMT

Third time's a charm i guess...funny.

Ganked from Severina :)

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 14:25:48 GMT

Why am i not surprised here? lol

I Am

Which tarot card are you?

Suspended decision. Initiation, divination, prophecy. Turning point in psychic powers. Trust in inner voice.
Suspension, change, reversal, boredom, abandonment, sacrifice, readjustment, improvement, rebirth
He usually represents a time of feeling in limbo, being stuck or being prevented from moving forward. He's usually depicted hanging upside down with his hands tied - that's just what it feels like! We need to remain flexible and willing to let go of things, it's probably a time for sacrifice. Like the man in this card from the Murciano Tarot, don't sweat it, take some time out and be patient.
The Hanged Man - External Meaning: Spiritual awareness and the happiness and assuredness it brings. Sacrificing for a noble purpose. Reveral of one's current way of life. Inner peace. Developed intuition and prophecy. Esoteric Meaning: The spirit of the mighty waters. Reversing false images. Sacrifice. Energys: Water

No wonder the fish swim in opposite directions...

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 14:16:21 GMT

Pisces
Date of Birth: 02/23

Today, you may feel like going back into your past, AMY. There are two kinds of Pisces: the one from the past with nostalgia for "the good old times," and the other one from the future who is unafraid to project himself into the unknown. Even though this sounds a bit contradictory, both these kinds of people help the world to move forward. Think about this today...

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 14:32:41 GMT

Thursday Jun 1, 2006

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Take control and push for what you want. You have the ability if you only put your mind to it. An investment will pay off if you aren't too greedy in the process.

I know what i want...the question is how do i get it? The situation is *not* impossible, but it's also not simple. How can you get a second chance when the passion that you feel about something is so electric, it's also damning you? How can you "erase" the past and start anew, let yourself be rediscovered, rediscover things on your own as well, and not be a victim, for lack of a better word, or circumstances that you now know were partly your fault? I have learned so many things, so why can't i get that second chance?

Frustrating.

Crap...losing my Mid-westernness!!!!

Wed, 17 May 2006 20:07:49 GMT

Your Linguistic Profile::

55% General American English

20% Yankee

10% Dixie

5% Midwestern

5% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

I'd say it's on...

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 17:07:25 GMT

I am a hybrid of:
Girl Next Door
Progressive Girl
Click on the pictures below to read more:
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Horked from Severina :)

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 19:29:07 GMT

I'm a horkin' fool today.

This isn't surprising:

What Planet Are You From?

this quiz was made by The Autist Formerly Known As Tim

Horked from Jennywho :)

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 15:54:08 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 17:40:09 GMT

man, i'm 33 and a day. *sigh*

It started off rather shaky, me very cranky, sad, and frustrated with how this life is playing out this year already, missing things i shouldn't be missing, pining for things that don't deserve to be pined for (or do they? i read somewhere if someone is still on your mind it means they are meant to be there--the story hasn't reached it's ending yet...hmmm) etc, etc. BUT it ended up very nicely, lovely dinner with my 2 closest friends, calls from my family, and wishes from friends.

Not bad, not bad at all.

Here's hoping that the next 364 days only get better and better.

I am so guilty of this...why do we do it to ourselves?

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 15:34:51 GMT

read this in a friend's MySpace blog...sad that it is typically true. How does anyone ever really get together? lol

Nice Guys Finish Last
By: Garrett Hols

It’s amazing that assholes can get girls. Actually, now that I think of it, it’s not that amazing. They are assholes at heart, but to meet girls they lavish their undying love. IT’S A CHARADE. They act nice, friendly, and they listen… until they get into what they’re after. Their prey thinks they are in love with them, however when they realize what assholes their predators really are, they pretend like the asshole is really nice inside. The girl tries to change the asshole into a nice guy, but assholes will always be assholes. She gets upset and goes to the nice guy to complain about the asshole. But she claims to love the asshole… now this is where the theory begins. She doesn’t want to look like she is easy so she wont dump the asshole right away, instead she will stay with the asshole. Girls are idiots. They don’t realize that the nice guy has been there all along. He never had to pretend to be a good guy to get girls because he is naturally like that. However, girls don’t see it for some reason or another. They look at the nice guy as a friend, a trusted companion to whom they can tell their sad story to about their asshole boyfriend. But the nice guy isn’t THAT naïve. He was trying to score with the girl he listens to all along. The problem is that since he is a nice guy he keeps listening. Since girls get attached to things that pay attention to them, they think of the nice guy as a friend. A FRIEND. They don’t say, “Oh he’s hot” or “I want to have his children” about the nice guy, they just want the emotional support. When they get the emotional support from the nice guy, they don’t need it from the asshole. The nice guy gets the shit end of the stick while the asshole gets all the action. I am starting to wonder if being a nice guy is really the route to take to get action… I have been down this path for all of my post-pubescent life and it has gotten me NOWHERE… at least not in the women department. Perhaps another reason why girls fall for the asshole is because assholes ignore the girl they are with. The women wonder, “Why isn’t he paying attention to me?” so they explore why. They poke and prod and get closer to the asshole. They start to get easier with each attempt to get closer. The asshole finally says, “I’ve let this beauty dangle long enough, time to boat this bass”. It is then he puts on his charade and the girl feels like she has won him… even thought all she has won is an asshole. Once you have gone down the path as a nice guy or a “listener” you can’t turn back. The girl will always go after the assholes because there are always nice guys there to listen. Once you realize that you are a “listener” you cant do anything about it… just pack up and close shop. There is no way you will get into her pants… ever. There is and never will be a situation where the nice guy will get the girl he has a crush on. It just doesn’t work like that. The girl wont “come to her senses” and realize what an asshole her boyfriend is like in the movies… instead she will just go after another asshole, and unless you stop being a nice guy, she will never go after you. Women complain that there are no nice guys in the world. Right. They are obviously not looking hard enough because there are nice guys EVERYWHERE!!!! Girls aren’t looking for nice guys… they say they are but they’re not. They are looking for the perfect asshole, but there is NO SUCH THING as the perfect asshole. All in all, the nice guy gets the shaft. To all the girls out there with boyfriends that don’t treat you with respect, that don’t listen to you, and that don’t care about you I say this; look next to you. The guy that has been standing next to you the whole time is the guy you have been looking for. He is what you want your asshole to be like. He knows more about you than you know about yourself… because he has listened to it all.

GEEK OUT!!

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:37:48 GMT

And yet again...frighteningly accurate...lol.

Ultimate Star Wars Personality Test

Cos i am a lemming...

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 17:30:09 GMT

And DAMN if it ain't true...lol

Your first name of Amy has made you a friendly, approachable, and generous person. Generally you are good-natured, though at times you can be blunt and sarcastic. As you are naturally talkative, you find it easy to meet and make friends with many people. This name inclines you to be sympathetic and generous to those in difficult or unfortunate circumstances. You can be firm, positive, and independent in your own ideas and in reaching your own decisions, yet when it comes to taking action or following things through to completion, you often need encouragement. You respond quickly to kind words or any appreciation shown you. There are artistic, creative abilities in this name that you could express through music or singing, or, in a practical way, through sewing or interior decorating

Although the name Amy creates the urge to be creative and original, we point out that is causes frustration through a scattered and emotional nature. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the liver, bloodstream, and in tension or accidents to the head.

What does your name mean?

Strange where i got this from, but something we ALL need to remember...

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 15:25:03 GMT

Why people fall in love? It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails. You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on. When this happen to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on. They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life, their love will grow. They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love, and accept it.

You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart. If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself. All our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame.

Let it go.

There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can. There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery. BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE. If you keep you heart open, it will come again...

Not surprising...

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 22:31:19 GMT

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence.

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Philosophy

100%

Psychology

100%

Art

100%

Theater

92%

Dance

92%

Engineering

83%

Mathematics

75%

Biology

75%

English

75%

Journalism

75%

Sociology

75%

Linguistics

75%

Anthropology

50%

Chemistry

33%

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